shafed phool

ek shafed phool........................

Connect with Your dreams

Sometimes small things makes a big difference in life..

My inability to drive car was hurting me. This I was trying since many years.

I Didn't wanted to try my hands on someone's car in the family, so finally I got my own car in 2012 and within few days I crashed it in the parking and end up paying huge money in insurance.

This is Funny but it demotivated me to core.

The feeling that I will never able to drive  a car was killing me, there was sense of unknown failure and fear.

huuh!!!Can't drive a car, what about those big dreams which I promised myself ?

 Fortunately and unfortunately, this year, I landed to a place where without a car, to be more precise without your driving skills you are a mere furniture. This place is not like Bangalore where you have Rickshaw or public buses. The Private taxi for every day use would turn me to pauper here.

I must say Uber saved my life. And few kind colleagues helped me to get to office, buy grocery and survive the cold winter.

Here I must tell you, though my husband is Good driver but he was hundreds of miles away in a different city, though he religiously travel every weekends. I was just managing the life here.

Every day I wanted to go back to India, there is so much to do here but without your driving skills nothing.

I gave the written test in RMV, I passed with flying colours but of no use, without being behind the driving seat

My Husband took this mountain task of making me drive.

Summer weekends, when everyone busy going to the beach and having fun, we ended up in IBM parking, practicing car. I always wanted that he get a job here, so that I don't have to drive and he would drop and pick me from office. Actually I had given up. We had frequent fights.

Oh ya! I need to mention this my manager never used to ask me about my work but about my driving. Everyone in office would ask me about it.

Once a guy came and said to me “hey it’s easy, just take your car and hit the freeway (as if!!), I did this when I was in high school a teenager. It was like someone rubbing salt to your injuries.

I must say it was embarrassing, hurtful, painful, depressing. I don't have enough words to jot down my feelings. Motivational videos, self-help books nothing helped. It was like if you can't drive, you can't learn anything new.

It was all DARK, CLOUDY .......SAD

 Then a miracle happen.

 One day I was playing msg-msg with one of my childhood friend in watsapp and thinking about our school days.

Suddenly this incident flashed to my mind.

I had got double zero in a math test, when I was in 2^nd grade, everyone made fun of me, and they teased me as big zero, a failure. But hey! I told to myself “Hold on didn’t I completed my Engineering in fact I topped in my department, went to India’s best college for my masters in engineering without any coaching. Today I am working as a software professional without any computer background. WOW”. There was a sense of pride but at the same time I was thinking what made me to do that and what’s stopping me now?

There is a missing link, if I get this link, I will be the best driver ever.

The answer was in the movie AVATAR. You guys remember the scene when Neytiri ask Jake to choose his Ikran. It was Jake, who had to connect with his Ikran, to ride on it and win the battle. So the link was CONNECT. 

Connect to your dream, to your ambition, to your work. This philosophy is terrific and can change life forever. It is connection with the things, which I thought I will never able to do in my life made me to do them.

It was the connection missing between me and my Car that's stopping me from driving not my fear, not my failure or anything in the universe.

It has been 2 months now, I am driving my car to the office, to Grocery , to railway station, to everywhere and anywhere.

Believe me driving my car makes me feel as amazing as Jake riding his Ikran.

Keep flying 

DAAAKU DAY!!!

I am very very Happy Today, because Daaku ..my youngest nephew turned 1 on
19th Sep 2014..

You are Angel of my life... my dear , my sweetheart...


you look like baba.
your smiles make me forget everything which is not so good in life..
your presence make me feel..baba is again with us..

GOD Bless you my sweetheart..
you and Aayang are the best things happen to our lives..

dil dhoondhataa ha-- Gulzar..

dil dhoondhataa hai, phir wahee furasat ke raat din
baithhe rahe tasawwoor-ye-jaanaa kiye huye

jaadon kee narma dhoop aur aangan mein let kar
aankhon pe khinch kar tere aachal ke saaye ko
aundhe pade rahe kabhee karawat liye huye

yaa gamreeyon kee raat jo poorawaaeeyaan chale
thhandee safed chaadaro pe jaage der tak
taaron ko dekhate rahe chhat par pade huye

barfeeli sardiyon me kisi bhi pahaad par
waadi me gunjati huyi khamoshiyan sune
aankho me bheeege bheege se lamhe liye huye

Life in Acton, the new Moon

Its one month now, I am in different country with different people.
I didn't post anything for more than a month now..No I  was not busy , I am having a plenty of time here.
Why I didn't post anything was because I didn't get any response from my so -called most religious followers..well What it is, it is.
 My post are a like my auto biography which I want people , my grand children to read long after I am gone.

Its 8.20 pm now, but still enough light..seems like 5 pm.  Today I decided to take a walk in the woods near to my studio. New flora-fauna , new topology , new people but when I see the sky, something very very familiar, the Moon . The Moon looked exactly the same, same as when I use to watched it from Nirjuli, same as when I use to watched it from Kharagpur, same as when I used to watched it from Mumbai , same as when I use to watched it from Bangalore.

Don't you agree "Something in life can never change." Like my habit of watching the moon and traveling in time.

Well let me share a Tantra "whenever you see the new moon, take out a note or a coin , show it to the moon and make a wish. your wish will come true" . If you don't believe me ..try it for yourself .

Posting a picture of mine ..
2015 March , Acton , MA

MY life in Littleton MA

Hi..
Finally I am Littleton, Massachuttes . Its a small village few miles away from Boston.

Its 8:43 am in the morning and I am in office.
People start working from as early as 7 am in the morning , today morning when I reached the office reception was not there . Good that I got my badge from the department concern. People are warm here in office as well as hotel. Everyone came to my desk and wished me ..I kinda enjoyed it. One more thing I am the youngest here in my team ..

Everyone is so very excited about me joining the team , sometimes I feel scary .
But best thing working here is know people and different cultures. My manager is Russian, one of team member is Mexican lady, she is absolute sweetheart, one gentleman (in his 60) is Irish very lovable person, then one Indian from west Bengal grown by Delhi. Its Multicultural here.

This is the thing I love most about working here in Littleton. And I will use to opportunity to learn Spanish.

Who knows one day I will be sing spanish lullaby..

So many things to tell...  

Last few weeks

Hi There..

Last few weeks were hectic..
Many new ideas revolving in my brain but seriously didn't had time to jot them down..

Product release is really a tough time but now its with the QA.

what a wonderful week..AAP's landslide victory in Delhi. Amazing .My personal take away is to be infinitely optimistic no matter whatever people, society , god , demi-god, godman-woman do or says to demotivate you. Believe in your dreams with zero percent doubt.

One more positive outcome of this year was reconciliation with my bestest friend ..friend for life and even after that. Its an immanent peace. Its like you have a invisible friend, to help you always. Its a wonderful feeling.

I had couple of stories running in my mind and will pen them soon.

Like experience of spending a day with Mr. Amitabh Bachan, when he was there for promotion of Shamitabh.

A beautiful story of  girls who are friends and remains friends for life..

A political analysis of current India..

All these are few things you can expect in my blog..


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