कुछ लोग क्यों चले जाते हैं

कुछ  लोग  क्यों इतना दूर चले जाते हैं ,
 की हम समुद्र की रेट पे उनका नाम खोजते  है
हम को पता हैं  की कभी रेट में कुछ नहीं मिलता ..
फिर भी आपने हाथों से ततोरते हैं ..

कुछ लोग क्यों चले जाते हैं !!!!

Allah will take care of me...

I was going through the meaning of "Allah" in the wiki ...well it means God .

And thank God! God does not have any religion :)

Oh I am not going to give any lecture on communal harmony or spirituality as it’s not my cup of tea.

Today I am going to narrate a childhood incident of mine which remind me of my very old friend Anjuma (Lutfira Begum).

I don't remember exactly how old I was the, may be in class IV or V.

I had this fear in mind what will happen after death. I will never able to see my loved ones and my friends. I will miss all the new things which will come in future; sometimes I would think I am immortal like many others.

We had a chapter in English about the great pyramids of Egypt, no offence but it made my life more miserable. For many days I could not sleep at night or play with my friends. I didn't wanted to discuss mortality issues with my parents or sisters.

So I decided to find myself what are the different possibilities after death.

I ask my friends about what they think about the matter. Most of them were like " I don't Know Types” .

But this friend of mine Anjuma gave a very shocking reply and very satisfactory reply.

She told me "I will be very happy when I will die, because ALLAH will take care of me and I don't have to worry about myself and other things"  with most amazing smile.

Believe me her lines console me very much and after that I didn't had any sleepless night for many years..

This was one of the incident that made me realization of God 

A woman in this country thinks any strange Male can be a potential rapist

Yesterday night me and my husband were coming Chennai.

 It was around 10-10.30 pm, we enter KR Puram in Bangalore, very few shops were open, I wanted to go to a loo , so I asked the driver to stop near some Mall, Coffee shop or some decent place with rest rooms. 

After sometime the driver stopped near Dominos Pizza.

It was about to close but they allowed me to use the rest room. My husband went to a near by shop to get water bottle. When I came out of Domino, strange feeling running on my mind.

Many a times , I am out at night time but never felt so very unsafe that too in a city center.

There was strange fear in my mind. I scanned the road but I could hardly see any female, fast moving cars and buses, but it was a group of man standing together outside Dominos that scared me the most. 

No they were not making any lewd comment nor  looking at me. They look from decent families too but there was a fear that they could be potential rapist or eve teasers.

This is what  a woman , a girl in this country thinks about an stranger Male ...POTENTIAL RAPIST

JUST WATCH YOUR ACTION

Sometimes back I watched the movie ‘The Balck Friday’, need not to say it is very well-tailored. I think it is Anurag Kshyap’s first movie too. 

Well I am not going to discuss the movie here. But if you guys have seen the movie its start with a very very Strong sentence “An Eye for an Eye will leave the world blind”.Very strong lines indeed.

People are becoming intolerant day by day. Even some so-called Gandhian have left his principle behind. Recently Mr Arvind Kejriwal's action of reconnecting the power line, I personally condemn  his action. 

It may be people friendly but do we see at what cost?  Tomorrow I say Government is doing nothing for North Easterner , I want separate country or else I will attack all Government institutions. Or a Kashmiri shouting for an independent country or else fight with India , Are this acts justifiable ?

 So where are we going,am I saying do not protest or fight against an atrocity ? 

No, but first respect the fact that we are leaving in democratic setup and we have to believe in this setup. 

Fight for the cause but in a proper democratic way, Keeping in mind the basic  fundamental of democracy –Majority wins . If we will all start  an eye for an eye soon we will became next  Afghanistan or Pakistan. 

By the way what Trigger me to write this blog is not Mr Arvind Kejriwal but My Cook Mr. Khogen Das.He told me a very beautiful story from Ramayan

It is believed that Sri Rama cursed the monkey clan, that they will never have a house of their own.

 But why did Sri Rama cursed the monkeys , who help him so much to win against the mighty Demon King Ravana. The story goes like this when Hanuman came from Lanka and told Sri Rama that he had burned the entire Lanka when Ravana tried to imprisoned him and set fire to his tail. All the monkeys present there were very happy with this victory of Hanuman. 

But Sri Rama though he was concerned about Hanuman’s well being condemn the act saying this heinous act of yours has cause unnecessary pain and trauma to many innocent  men ,women ,children and aged people of Lanka without any fault of their own , to make Hanuman and others present there to realize the same trauma and pain the Lord cursed entire monkey clan that they will never have house of their Own.”

The moral of the story whatever be the cause..JUST  WATCH  YOUR ACTION

Best Valentine day

Sometimes one moment can change you life for ever.

 I know  some of you might have experienced that moment. But if you believe me you will get several moments like that.Well  I am going to tell you a story, friction or real one , I leave it to best of your judgement.  

I clearly remember  it was the evening of 13^th Feb 2010. I was waiting for him to come and clear all the difference for ever. The mall was painted in red color , heart shaped balloons, happy and cheerful crowd, young couples all over the places. I was anxiously looking at the watch .How shall I start, what should I say, will things between us will be alright again...phew ..God Help me today..Tomorrow is the Valentine’s Day , if things go well, It will be the best valentine or else ...No no..I don’t want that to happen.

Suddenly , I saw him coming towards me.

“Hey Hi!” he said.

Yeah “Hi!..After long time we are meeting. How are you? And How is your work?

“ I am good, Oh Gosh lots of work. I simply don’t like the job and I want to change my job asap. Well forget it , tell me how is your new job. Are you liking it?”

I said “Hmm  Would you like to have Tea or Coffee?".

“yeah ! I will have Tea and you coffee right?. I will get it ,please sit here I will be back in moment with my tea and your coffee.”

How shall I start but I have to clear things today...

“Yeah here is your coffee. Tell me you wanted to tell something important today. I hope we don’t end up fighting again today". He smiled at me.

We were meeting each other after 3 weeks . I said “ remember that few days back I asked you to list 10 important things in your life...you said changing job and getting good money, get a groom for your elder sister, to buy a house asap and a few things which I don’t remember ..and I asked you where I am in your life. You said to me that day from now onwards you have think before replying to my questions”

I asked you the same question today “where am I in your Life ?” . He didn’t replied anything. “Okay forget everything else .. ”Do you love me? “  I asked point blank to him . He could not avoid me this time , he said “ I don’t know”. 

“what the hell you were doing last two years? I thought we are in a relationship and you are telling me today that you don’t know whether you love me or not.”

“I think I like you but you know my problems I have elder sister who is yet to be married. How can I marry before her, I need to buy house here in Mumbai and you know its so damn costly here and my job..you know I don’t like it. You are small town girl  and you have this irritatingly suspicious nature. I do have friends who are girls and I cannot stop talking or meeting them because of you.”

“Are you saying its over for you?”. “ No I never said that, I need more time”. ..

Time for what..How can you do this to me? I know god is punishing me for sin I have done.

“Hey Please stop crying here and don’t make a scene here, you know I don’t like all these.  We will talk later.Its already 8’clock in the evening , let me drop you home ,my mom is waiting for dinner. Please we can be good friends, you know I care for you. I like you but you know I have so much of family pressure”

“Just go away , I want to stay alone for some time and will go home myself.”

Then I saw him going without even looking back again. I wish he turn back to me once and all this is not real but a dream, how can he say ‘He don’t know whether he loves me or not after two years’. Why the hell he did this to me and that too pretending so innocently. No ..no it can happen ......

I was so lost in thought , all the moments when we were together Haji Ali, Colaba,Movie Halls , Malls, Nasik, office canteens ..keep coming to my mind. 

I know he is angry with me , so he said like that..I know he cares for me and he will come back.Oh god I wish he comes back to me and say that its not true..

My mobile rang.....Oh thanks God its him, I knew he will call me back and he is here and looking for me “Hello”. “Hello, where are you? Are you still in Mall..there is a blast in city at 8:30pm ..German Bakery. Police has declared a high alert”.

“I am still in the Mall?”.

“OK go home fast , take a rickshaw or cab. Its not safe outside.” I hang up the call and started laughing out loud. 

Bullshit ..I was crying for this person , who does not deserve to be called as man..Forget Loving me, this person cannot love anyone. Police has declared high alert and its dangerous ....I could stop laughing and thanking God from bottom of my heart for making the next Day as my best valentine Day ever. I was out of my worst nightmare and stepping to a beautiful morning.....

Believe me after that all my valentine days were best days ever..

No Monster in the Lake...

The Kite Runner , didn’t  took long to complete the book.

But I know for sure it will take many lives to understand it.  Somewhere I feel like I have an epiphany.Epiphany..important to know for good or for bad. The antagonist had this epiphany which made him a psychopath , a crazy fanatic.

Well thank god..I had an epiphany which is positive. There is so much in the book. 

Well night before the kite tournament, Hassan had this strange dream. In the dream every boby in the town asking them (Amir and Hassan)not to go into the lake as there is a monster below. The monster will kill them. But the boys didn’t listen  and they swim across the lake and tells everyone that there is no monster in lake and came out as sultan of Kabul. When they came out they were welcome by the cheerful crowds.

So the question is Was there any monster in the Lake? No for Hassan but yes for Amir. The monster is no where in the lake.But it is deep  inside our heart. If we allow the monster to make room in our heart  it will be there, always looking for a chance to scare us and stop us for judging what is right and what is wrong.

Like Hassan if we believe there is no Monster life will be far more easy and we will come out as winner in what we do....as king of Kabul..

Morning Enlightenment

Place : My Bedroom, 7:56am .Bangalore..

Hah..After long time I am Pushing myself to write something. 

All these days why I was not writing anything, the same old answer, I was busy with work, I could not get time..blah blah......

NONSENSE!

It because I am too lazy and love lazing around all the time. .. OK now leave that.

So what should I write about now. Lets take up Time Management.

Hey wait no I am not giving some tips from some self help books, you can get easy and quick access of them.Its nothing but my routine saga.

Today morning I got up at 6:45am, by the way my alarm clock is always set @5:20am but I think I hardly woke up @5.20am.

 Every morning after getting up I became very anxious about pending things.

...OMG where to start from is the most frequent question.

7.20 am got the news paper , I read the head lines, city page and of course  the editorial page.

By 7.45am my helper Anitha was on the door. I asked Anitha  the usual question  “How is your Son? Drop him to School”. She replies back as usual “yes  DIDI”.  

Me : Tell me what time do you get up in the morning?

Anitha : 4.00am (laugh) Didi.

Me still in state of shock...what!. 

She smiled and replied back “yes Didi, I get up at 4.00 clock..cook breakfast & lunch for my Husband, Mother-in-law and for myself. It will be done by 5.30 then I cook snacks for my kid. Get ready and make my kid ready by 7.00am, drop him to school and then I came to your house  and there after other houses in the apartment. My work will be over by 1.00pm or 2.00pm then I will go back and do cleaning, washing other activities. Again from 4.00-6.00pm I will sit with my kid and help him in doing Homework (by the way Anitha is literate as well as Educated , she has done her HSS). Then again cooking , cleaning ...blah..blah and by 9:30-10:00pm I am done with everything and off to sleep.."

I was astonished by her revelation.I think I am enlighten now and this blog is the immediate outcome of my enlightenment.

By the way this blog is dedicate to two workaholic People..Miss Sareeta Mandavkar ,of course my dear Anitha without her help I would not have written this.