Sometimes small things makes a big difference in
life..
My
inability to drive car was hurting me. This I was trying since many years.
I
Didn't wanted to try my hands on someone's car in the family, so finally I got
my own car in 2012 and within few days I crashed it in the parking and end up
paying huge money in insurance.
This
is Funny but it demotivated me to core.
The
feeling that I will never able to drive a car was killing me, there was
sense of unknown failure and fear.
huuh!!!Can't
drive a car, what about those big dreams which I promised myself ?
Fortunately and
unfortunately, this year, I landed to a place where without a car, to be more
precise without your driving skills you are a mere furniture. This place is not
like Bangalore where you have Rickshaw or public buses. The Private taxi for every day use would turn me to pauper here.
I
must say Uber saved my life. And few kind colleagues helped me to get to
office, buy grocery and survive the cold winter.
Here
I must tell you, though my husband is Good driver but he was hundreds of miles
away in a different city, though he religiously travel every weekends. I was
just managing the life here.
Every
day I wanted to go back to India, there is so much to do here but without your
driving skills nothing.
I
gave the written test in RMV, I passed with flying colours but of no use,
without being behind the driving seat
My
Husband took this mountain task of making me drive.
Summer
weekends, when everyone busy going to the beach and having fun, we ended up in
IBM parking, practicing car. I always wanted that he get a job here, so that I
don't have to drive and he would drop and pick me from office. Actually I had given up. We had frequent fights.
Oh
ya! I need to mention this my manager never used to ask me about my work but
about my driving. Everyone in office would ask me about it.
Once
a guy came and said to me “hey it’s easy, just take your car and hit the
freeway (as if!!), I did this when I was in high school a teenager. It
was like someone rubbing salt to your injuries.
I
must say it was embarrassing, hurtful, painful, depressing. I don't have enough
words to jot down my feelings. Motivational videos, self-help books nothing
helped. It was like if you can't drive, you can't learn anything new.
It
was all DARK, CLOUDY .......SAD
Then
a miracle happen.
One
day I was playing msg-msg with one of my childhood friend in watsapp and
thinking about our school days.
Suddenly
this incident flashed to my mind.
I
had got double zero in a math test, when I was in 2nd grade, everyone made fun of me,
and they teased me as big zero, a failure. But
hey! I told to myself “Hold
on didn’t I completed my Engineering in fact I topped in my department, went to
India’s best college for my masters in engineering without any coaching. Today
I am working as a software professional without any computer background. WOW”. There was a sense of pride
but at the same time I was thinking what made me to do that and what’s stopping
me now?
There
is a missing link, if I get this link, I will be the best driver ever.
The
answer was in the movie AVATAR. You guys remember the scene when Neytiri ask
Jake to choose his Ikran. It was Jake, who had to connect with his Ikran, to
ride on it and win the battle. So the link was CONNECT.
Connect
to your dream, to your ambition, to your work. This philosophy is terrific and
can change life forever. It is connection with the things, which I thought I
will never able to do in my life made me to do them.
It
was the connection missing between me and my Car that's stopping me from
driving not my fear, not my failure or anything in the universe.
It
has been 2 months now, I am driving my car to the office, to Grocery , to
railway station, to everywhere and anywhere.
Believe
me driving my car makes me feel as amazing as Jake riding his Ikran.
Keep
flying
